July 31, 2006 at 10:04 am (Uncategorized)

yup. supposed to be writting some thesis right now. totally not doing it. just enjoying a day at home with the cats, catching up on my blogging, resting my tired soul. dad and tris came down this weekend to visit- yay! finally! i hope they like our place (i think they did), and that they thought the trip was worth it (4 hours of driving, just to spend less than 24 hours in south texas).

i am constantly amazed at the lack of support i get at work. case in point: i have to teach a lab, and we are supposed to go out to the beach to do some seining tomorrow. there are 12 undergrads, so we have to split up into 2 vehicles. well, i’m only one person, which means we need another driver- and no one will help out. not a frigging one. none of my friends, none of my lab mates, not even my professor. i understand that people have stuff to do. so do i. but surely one person could spare two hours of their morning to drive the two blocks it is to the beach. if this isn’t resolved, i’m going to have to cancel the lab, which the boss will see as me slacking off. he never bothers getting the real story from me, he just interprets everything i do as being wrong. man, i want to be done with this place and start a new job somewhere else! none of my other grad student friends have these problems with their advisors or their departments!

marmalade said…

please move to california! you can always count on me.

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invisible meg

July 28, 2006 at 4:00 pm (Uncategorized)

what is the deal with people always blowing me off, even when i’m in the middle of talking to them? and why am i always the backup friend- when no one else is around, apparently i’m extremely interesting, but as soon as the “primary friend” shows up, i get blown off.

have i mentioned that i hate port aransas?

marmalade said…

i love you. people are stupid. you are amazing.

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the sounds of this small town make my brain hurt…

July 16, 2006 at 4:01 pm (Uncategorized)

ok. maybe i just need to get the crap out of the port a/ corpus universe. there’s gotta be some real science out there that i’m interested in.

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it only takes one chicken fried steak…

July 16, 2006 at 1:16 pm (Uncategorized)

…to get me feeling all crappy ’bout my life. how does that work? it wasn’t a horrible chicken fried steak, or a huge one (so i’m not feeling guilty about eating too much), so why do i suddenly have this overwhelming feeling of dispair? maybe because i’ve been dreaming about stupid bowling alleys…specifically me working in one forever. for those who are not aware, i worked in a bowling alley for three years in high school, because it was across the street from where we lived and hiring, and i had tasted money one summer while working at a day camp and wanted more. plus i was freaked out about paying for college. then, i graduated from high school and worked at the bowling alley at ut- wheeee. i never dream about that place, or the people i knew while working there, just the first one. why?

is it because i’m afraid i’ll end up working in a bowling alley forever? i realized today that if i’m desparate for a job while writing my thesis, i could always look up the local bowling alleys in corpus. what if i get trapped and end up working there forever? assuming that they’d even hire me in the first place. they could take one look at my education and turn their noses up at me. that wouldn’t be a bad thing, except that there are pretty much no labs to work in here in corpus. i could try to hit up the a&m, but that seems kinda like a dead end- if they needed techs, they’d hire their own students first. boo. not that i’m not going to give it a try, though.

really, let’s be totally honest here- i really miss the treatment i got working in the bowling alleys. i’m not talking about the creapy bowlers who liked hitting on a scared 16 year old. i was the best employee at both bowling alleys, and my managers made sure to tell me so, very often with raises. now, i’m floundering as a scientist and my jerk boss either doesn’t notice me or emotionally reams me ’til i’m bawling. hm. funny how close the word bawling is to the word bowling…and funny that no one at any bowling alley ever made me cry (well, a customer did once, but she was a total bitch and i was having a bad day).

stupid bowling alley dreams and stupid bowling alley blogs. totally not helping me feel about anything. i’m going to go do an experiment that’ll reafirm how much i suck at this science and slip ever deeper into the pile of poop that is my emotional state today…

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guilty cat

July 13, 2006 at 6:14 pm (Uncategorized)

damn cat. she’s not even remotely remorseful.

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stupid immune system

July 12, 2006 at 4:27 pm (Uncategorized)

hey, i’m tired of being sick, ok? let’s just get this bug out of our system, and just go back to being marginally functional, ok immune system? are you listening? i’m really tired of popping so much day- and niquil. being loopey for a couple days is one thing, but a whole week is just not going to cut it. i have classes to teach, research to do, and crafting to conquer. c’mon, get it together!

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so icky

July 10, 2006 at 5:40 pm (Uncategorized)

i’m sick. i have a stupid cold- thanks a lot, cuteface. i keep passing out, feeling weird, and generally feeling like total crap. normally, this would suck but be ok, but this cold really, reallllllly sucks, for two reasons: 1)- i have to teach two labs this week, so i can’t really take any time off to get better and 2) i just bought a ton of beads in austin last weekend and i don’t have the energy to make stuff with them! poop. apparently even taking pics of the beads makes me shakey. even typing makes me really weak. the pile of used tissues next to me keeps growing and growing…blech. the only good thing about this is that the cats keep sleeping on me. that’s nice.

marmalade said…

wowee. what an amazing collection. do you get them all locally? maybe i’ll have to come to port a….

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ah, i love storms…

July 5, 2006 at 3:39 pm (Uncategorized)

it’s raining like freaking crazy here!!!! we’re well into summer in south texas and yet i think we’ve had only a handfull of dry days so far. I’m going to have to plan some backup, in house labs for the fishes lab i’m suppose to start teaching next week- we’re scheduled to be out in the field more than in the teaching lab, which won’t work if it’s pouring rain…

i want to find more people who blog. i want to peak into other people’s lives to see what the find is important enough to sit down and type about. i think i may finally be at the point where i don’t have to only blog about how depressed i am, and i’m ashamed that lately i’ve just been using this blog to post pics that i want to use for craftster. i gotta get better about this blogging thing. i do interesting stuff, right? hm, that comment alone may have totally disqualified me as interesting in anyway…ah, well. time to do some blog spying. come on, interesting people! let’s see your crafts and hear your grad school horror stories! am i the only person with a crap adviser who is supposed to graduate in 2 months but has crap data and no real thesis writing done? surely not!

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oh, the dorkiness…

July 2, 2006 at 8:31 pm (Uncategorized)

i was a crafting mad woman this weekend! in addition to the big green necklace in the last post, i made these three lovelies:


i think the red one kinda looks like two dragons making out, which reminds me of this incident i observed today:

cats making out and cuddling! yay! no more hissing (or at least much less than normal), and moon wants to cuddle with clio all the time- sooooo cute!

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green with beadery

July 1, 2006 at 7:32 pm (Uncategorized)

oh, the crafty things i do….i made a fancy green necklace today. i worried that the slight blueness of the seed beads would clash with the brown in the, well, brown beads, but instead they toned down the brown. well, it still looks really cool overall. i might make another necklace tonight, and maybe a bracelet…now if only i had the clothes and oppurtunities to wear the fancy stuff i make. sigh…


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