on a lighter note

August 29, 2006 at 2:53 pm (Uncategorized)

i have started messing around with polymer clay- horray! it is fun, when i can think of stuff to sculpt…like these two cuties! yay! horray! ok. the cake is for eve, following the ‘you don’t suck cake’ theme i mentioned earlier in my blogging glory, and the cat is just for fun. hopefully i’ll be inspired to sculpt more soon!

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milk was a bad choice…

August 29, 2006 at 2:39 pm (Uncategorized)

oi, i am ill. not in the normal, head cold/allergies way. something might actually be wrong with my digestive tract. i’m talking seriously- i have a CT tomorrow and everything. fantastic. i guess i’ve always kinda ignored any digestive issues- they always seemed to take care of themselves. well this time when my system was “taking care of itself”, there was much blood involved. very scary. no procrastinating about going to the doctor then. now i’m on lots of antibiotics (’cause it’s probably just some bug freaking out in my system) and the doc was worried about some sensitivity in my abdomen so i have a CT tomorrow. weeee. not to mention that my stomach still hurts. damn stupid gi tract! leave me alone and do your job!

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August 18, 2006 at 3:56 pm (Uncategorized)

the emotions that music can evoke constantly amaze me. i am listening to frou frou, and something in me feels very…different, but so familar. can it really have been so long since i felt just the simple joy that this cd is apparently associated with? maybe i really am getting better, since the happiness actually got past all the mess that is in my head.

i am thinking of getting a tattoo soon. for a long time i wanted something like a stingray or something celtic, but these things don’t stick with me for very long. i’ve been thinking a while of getting a little yellow or white butterfly, because they seem to represent pure joy to me. several times i’ve been in the middle of a serious panic attack where the only thing i can think of is how awful everything is and how easy it would be to just stop breathing, but right before i feel like i just can’t take any more of the screaming in my head i see a little white butterfly flying by, and instantly things are put back into their correct perspective. now i just need to decide where i’d put it. any suggestions, oh faithful 2 readers?

Sarah said…

I’m a big fan of the lower back tattoo – easy to cover up (in the office, say), but you still get to show it off sometimes (at the beach!). Ankle is always good, too.

I don’t have a tattoo, but I’ve been thinking about getting one, and that’s where I’d put it (I think).

I also think you should go with the butterfly – it obviously means a lot to you, and would be a little message to yourself everytime you looked at it or thought about it.

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August 16, 2006 at 10:57 am (Uncategorized)

for the first time this morning, i woke up wondering why my mom hadn’t called in a long time. no tears, just a subtle “oh” when i realized why.

marmalade said…

believe me or not, that’s progress. i still do that occasionally too.

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the conundrum

August 14, 2006 at 10:58 am (Uncategorized)

ok, so it’s not a major conundrum, like “why do we exist” or “how do they get so much cheese in the easy cheese can?” but it vexes me nonetheless. i am considering moving to a cubicle. that means i would willingly move out of an office i share with my lab mates, where my desk has a window and sunlight and plants that are only mostly dead. my office is just around the corner from my lab, which i’ll be spending a lot of time in over the next month and a half while i desparately try to finish up my lab work. but, if i’m down in the cubicles, i’ll be away from my boss. that is a major plus. also, it’s quiter down there and i’d have more room to spread out all my papers while i’m writing.

here’s an example of why i want to get away from my boss so much:
he walks into the office this morning, totally ignores me, no hello or anything. starts talking to the other two guys about a paper that is in the process of being revised. whatever, doesn’t involve me. but, he talks about how he needs to do a little extra on the paper- he’s going to have a guy in a totally different lab work on it. so, that guy would get on the paper. nevermind that he could teach me the technique and then have the whole lab on the paper. he’s more interested in getting as many papers out with his name on them than teaching his student how to do something so she can get a publication. have i mentioned that i hate this lab?

hm, just writing that out makes me even more determined to make the move. i’ll have to say goodbye to my view, but it distracts me a lot anyway. i’m looking forward to putting up nice colorful pictures of stuff i liked in austin (baby peacocks, flowers from the botanical gardens, etc), and being pretty much isolated from other people. so i’m just adding to my hermitic tendencies. so what?

ps- i just found out that a hermitic is also a spicy cookie…so i’m a hot cookie that doesn’t like talking to people!

-=erin=- said…

sweetie… you are amazing…you must come hang out…and celebrate once that thesis is (finally!) done… and we can science bs until the sun comes up… and scare away all of the non-sci friends that will be there… check your email, i wrote you a novel :D… *hugs*!!!

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can you hear it?

August 13, 2006 at 8:36 pm (Uncategorized)

it’ coming, i can hear it…it’s a quiet sound, but i know it will get louder…oh goodness…it’s the revolution! it’s now!

heck yes, i have knitted awesome fuzzy legwarmers! i am proud of them because 1) they were made in less than 24 hours 2) they are really comfortable and 3) this is the first time i’ve ever knitted something in 2 colors. i cheated and used a knifty knitter loom to make them, but whatever, they are still awesome. i don’t know if i’d ever wear them in public, but you never know. i’ve been known to do some crazy stuff sometimes. please excuse the little chunks of toilet paper in the pics- moon went on another toilet paper chomping rampage the other day and i haven’t had a chance to pick up all the pieces yet.

in other news, the boy and i discovered the charming town of rockport on friday while skipping out of an afternoon of tedious work. rockport is the only south texas coastal town that actually has a real “cool” vibe to it- it has an art district, with, i don’t know, 12 galleries on one block, and one of the coolest coffee shops i’ve ever been in (the caveat being that the service is super slow). it sucks that i’m a grad student but i have to drive 30 minutes (and that’s just from work- it’s probably 1 – 1.5 hours from home) to get to a coffee shop where i feel comfortable hanging out. the other cool part of the day might be kind of a meg thing, but this is a meg blog so i’m writing about it any way. we went by my bank in downtown corpus, and while crossing the street i saw a super tiny inca dove- it must have only just gotten it’s first full set of feathers. it wouldn’t get out of the road, so i picked it up and put it in a planter on the sidewalk- and it didn’t want to get out of my hand! it was sooooooo cute! eeee!

ok, enough girliness. time to go puruse craftster before giving in and going to be at a reasonable time so that i can function at work tomorrow.

marmalade said…

make me some!!!! it gets so cold here & i can’t wear my favorite skirts.

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ramalama- a reflection on my random rambling

August 11, 2006 at 10:54 am (Uncategorized)

and we are back to the original blog template. the last one was too flashy, and i figured, why mess with what works? whatever.

i am officially almost done with teaching- horray! i say almost because i have to move stuff around the lab and put stuff in storage, but i’m done grading papers and tests and lab reports. no more whiny students! now, on to the serious writing of the thesis and finishing up of the reseach…

i want to take some crafting classes. either pottery classes or polymer clay classes- justin even said he’d take them with me! yay! or, it would be nice to learn how to knit for real. i wonder it the community college in corpus has informal classes like acc did in austin…and if they do, would they have good classes? time for google action!

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what can i say about steroids?

August 1, 2006 at 4:38 pm (Uncategorized)

writing a thesis is not fun. nor is it easy. it seems like it should be easy- after all, i’ve just spent the last year intensely focused on this stuff that i’m supposed to be writing about. i think that might be the problem- i know this stuff, but i don’t know how to get what’s in my head into any kind of reasonable form that can be thrown onto paper. plus it is so very easy to be distracted- hence this blog! and the kitties are so happy that i’m home, and it is very tempting to take naps, or make coffee, or go out…

crap. i gotta focus!

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