triumphant return. somewhat.

January 16, 2010 at 10:15 pm (Uncategorized)

Silly me, spending all this time and effort to import and set up this blog and then not posting for a million years… And, as usual, I’m only back because I have to write to get the crazy out of my head. My poor car got broken into yesterday, dammit. In the parking lot of the HEB where I’ve been going since I started college 10 years ago, where I first started shoppping after having moved out of my parents’ house. So, not only have I lost my work laptop, with all the planning I’ve been doing (thank goodness I backed up last semester!), with all the pictures I’ve recently taken, as well as my lovely camera, and my damn wallet (fortunately I had my debit card and ID on me), and a necklace that I helped my dad pick out for my mom years ago, I also will probably never be able to go back to that store. I know it could’ve happened any where, but still.  It’ll bug me for forever, probably.

Stupid universe. PS my coworkers hate me because I actually make a fuss about how the admin at my school help first year teachers (which is to say THEY DON’T). Sigh. Time for a bath, then gotta go buy a new laptop. Sigh again.

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one panic attack later…

June 21, 2009 at 9:49 pm (Uncategorized)

Holy moly, what a week. No time for prose, must list instead:

1). I reconnected a friend who I totally cannot read- is he annoyed with me for wanting to hang out with me? He seems it, yet he keeps showing up. I refuse to believe he was more interesting in 6th grade than he is now, but this may be a lost cause. He actually contacted me about teaching jobs through the magic of Facebook and we’ve hung out a couple times since then, but each time I get the feeling he cannot wait to get outta there. Whatever. It’s hard enough pulling answers from my students, I don’t need that kind of interaction with people in my personal life as well.

2). I discovered a type of beer that doesn’t make me want to throw up immediately: heffeweisen! Yum.

3). At the beginning of this week the major school district affiliated with my teaching program declared a hiring freeze- not good, considering most of us were counting on getting hired by them. So, the program said we didn’t have to stick to our affiliated districts any more, and that instead we could apply where ever we wanted. So, a few days later, after finally getting a moment to myself, I started looking at charter schools in my city, and sending off resumes randomly, not expecting much but wanting to get them out of the way before I did the big applications for districts outside of town. Twenty minutes after I sent a specific school my resume, a principal called me to schedule an interview- for that afternoon. I went after my teaching classes, had the first interview where I didn’t walk away feeling completely dumb about my answers, and went to go get very drunk with my classmates while playing minigolf. Several very intoxicated hours later, I check my email…and I had been offered the job. Within twelve hours of sending my resume. HOLY CRAP. Talk about a confidence booster!

It’s not all roses and sunshine, though…I have to teach Physics and Chemistry, instead of Biology like I was hoping. It’s actually probably better this way, though- less contraversial subject matter, more concrete experiments, and NO RAT CARCASSES. Also, this school has an amazing schedule that involves a two week fall break, right around my birthday. Holy moly…for that I alone I can forgive them for making me write my own curriculum for each of the classes.

I HAVE A JOB!!! HOLY CRAP! After busting my ass for a year and a half trying to get a new science job, just two weeks after starting to find a science teaching job I AM HIRED. I’m so excited, I think I’ll go to be a half an hour early today in celebration (something that teachers appreciate, believe me!).

Also, I saw this after lesson planning all day Saturday at a coffee shop:

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Please tell me someone else sees that thing sneaking up on that poor, unsuspecting house, about to give it a major karate chop…

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Epiphanies

June 16, 2009 at 9:18 pm (Uncategorized)

1. Teaching isn’t as hard as I had thought it would be. My students this summer are actually really interested in our lessons, and are really smart!! My supervising teacher, however, is a pain the ass.
2. If for some reason I do not get a job in the fall, I can always fall back on becoming a medical technologist.
3. I AM LONELY. This is leading to all sorts of psychological issues that I really shouldn’t have to be dealing with as a new teacher. Stupid boy has no sympathy for my busy-ass teaching schedule and barely interacts with me the two hours I’m actually home and conscious. I’m thinking about curling up in a ball in the closet and crying my eyes out. Maybe then I can work on becoming an actual functioning part of society. Or I can just stop trying to be social and just collapse into myself. That leads to a renewed interest in self harm, which was hard enough to deal with grad school when no one relied on me, so how can I deal with that now that I have students? Not to mention people I “have” to socialize with as a new teacher. Hello, more medication…but will any really renew my self-worth? I basically haven’t had any in…I don’t even know how many years. Four? Five? Definitely not since my mom died and my brain went all sorts of wonky and never really recovered. Dammit, monkeys are social, what the hell is wrong with me?? I tried to hang out with a friend who I haven’t seen in 15 years and instead of catching up and being in anyway a normal human being I basically threw myself at him and screamed “I HOPE YOU STILL LIKE ME!” but over the course of an hour. The poor guy had to drink three pints to put up with me.

Must go plan lessons now. No more time for self reflection and self pity…

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the last few weeks in pictures

May 25, 2009 at 3:58 pm (Uncategorized)

My lab legacy:

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Two+ years of saved post-its notes, all deemed no longer necessary and thrown into the recycle bin. My ex-assistants would be proud.

It’s kitten season at my dad’s place in the “country”:
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Such cute little future-demons…one of them already knows what he/she wants to be when he/she grows up:

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A dragon slayer! This pic is blurry because it is so full of dragon-butt-kicking action. That dragon is supposed to go on the end of rain gutters, like a gargoyle. If you’ve ever been on a plane, you’ll recognize it’s from, that’s right, Skymall!! Hahaha… I thought it was such an awesomely silly idea to get my dad…until I gave them to him and he sadly pointed out that he has no rain gutters. What the what?? Who doesn’t have rain gutters?? Whatever, now the dragon gutter guys flank his front door and are obviously great threats to little kittens.

Also, it’s pretty-flower-season!
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Also known as the beginning of “f*ck-it’s-hot” season. Soon it will be “do-I-really-need-to-go-outside-during-daylight?” season and all the flowers will be gone. Sadness!

Back to work…hopefully this will be the last Memorial day I have to work for a while, but who knows what the future brings? All I know is that, for a while at least, it will bring less rat-dander-induced allergies!

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pics for kicks

May 7, 2009 at 6:36 pm (Uncategorized)





i felt the need to share some pictures…

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Woot!

March 29, 2009 at 10:51 am (Uncategorized)

Holy crap! The uber-awesome Vic has given my silly little blog an award!!

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And I didn’t have to beg or anything! My day has been substantially brightened!

Part of the award entails passing it on to five more fancy bloggers (like a chain letter, or possibly herpes), which I have to admit was a challenging task for me…the people I would give this to were either also awarded by Vic (e.g. my BFBFF (best fucking blog friend forever), Steamy Becky) so I would feel like a chump giving them the same award, or are people whose blogs I lurk on but haven’t commented on yet (I’m shy!), or are people who probably would not respect an award with a bow in it, unless that bow were on a velociraptor that was eating a hobo on the moon while being shot at by Jesus (e.g. this guy) or are people with secret blogs that only a scant few people can read (Hi E!). Despite all that, I think I have my picks figured out! Drum roll, please…

Brigette’s crafty buggy blog! She is both a nerd (ahem, scientist) and a crafter, like me, and her plushies are incredibly cute while retaining scientific integrity so nerds like me are super happy. Also she touched a bug pin that Darwin touched! How freakin’ cool is that?!?

Jessica’s Hey Lola! This lady will funny your pants off. When you stop by, make sure to congratulate her on her imaginary pregnancy!

Ida’s Tin Heart! I have totally heart-ed Ida for quit some time, and she’s going through the same “i-just-got-out-of-school-and-real-life-sucks” part of life I (still) am going through.

Crankylit Prof’s Cranky Epistles Haha, I wish all my professors had been like this one…

Cat’s Zipbag of Bones Ok, so this is one of the blogs I lurk on so it totally goes against the rules I set for myself but she’s really funny and her wrist is really broken right now.

Here’s the caveat to the award, people!

Da rules:
The rules of this award are:
* Copy the badge and put the logo on your blog sidebar or post.
* Nominate at least 5 blogs (can be more) that for you are Uber Amazing!
* Let them know that they have received this Uber Amazing award by commenting on their blog.
* Share the love and link to this post and to the person you received your award from.
Come back and comment here so that your link could be added to the masterlist of awardees.

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overload imminent

March 26, 2009 at 8:29 pm (Uncategorized)

Oh moly, I am going to go crazy (by which I mean more so than normal and not in the fun way) soon. I’ve already worked 40 hours this week and it’s only Thursday, and I have a 15 hour day of experiments tomorrow, then my practice fancy teaching content test Saturday morning (so no sleeping in, sadness), followed by another 12 hour day of experiments on Sunday. Gah. The good news is that once this project is done I (HOPEFULLY) will be done with overtime in this lab forever. Let’s cross our fingers, people!

In other news, I’ve been staring at this fox head I made a while back for some time now, because I can’t decide what to do with it yet…
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All of this is completely irrelevant, of course, because I need to go to bed! I must catch up on my sleep in preparation for the next few days…

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the stingrays are migrating

February 2, 2009 at 2:03 pm (Uncategorized)

Honestly, I shouldn’t have to do this, what with free speech and all, but I’m migrating once again to try to reduce the level of drama around me. Good Goddess protect me from over inflated egos…

By the way, the definition of troll for the uninitiated: someone who leaves a shitty comment on your blog, especially those with personal attacks. It’s a technical term, not a personal one. Watch out for billy goats.

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a penultimate texas experience

February 2, 2009 at 2:01 pm (Uncategorized)

ooooooh my. for the first time ever, i went to a country western bar last night. on purpose. lemme e’splain.

my good friend, who i will call fin, had to evacuate from port a yesterday due to the all the reports of impending doom brought on by hurricane ike. it turns out ike won’t hit south enough to really affect port a afterall, but at least fin’s getting a trip to austin out of it.

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hmm.

February 2, 2009 at 1:59 pm (Uncategorized)

so, i have an interview for another on campus job on monday. exciting, right?? well, i don’t know. i should be excited- i’m super qualified, the job pays a ton, i’ve heard the professor is interesting, etc. his lab looks at

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